hmm.. i am feeling .. like heh heh and ha ha .. cos..
1stly, jus got off phone with nessa and yap we are hitting the beach tml. sometimes she still can cheer my day up by- making me speak lousy ang moh to her yet sometimes she irritates me still :)
but so glad we ARE finally meeting after being MIA for so long!

2nd is PRELims ARE OVER! CAN!

jus before all this happiness rush into my mind.
just a moment ago...everything was bleak and sorrowful and empty
alot of "why" came into my mind after what happened jus now. i went crazy again. and i couldnt help being sensitive towards whatever little things he says. and all of a sudden i jus wanna be alone and stay outside perhaps just for sheer stubborness, and some morbid fascination with the nights.
we were quiet side-by-side. the silence hung between us was terrible. i truly wish i was alone then to stand next to each other with the discomfort solitude. i try to speak.. and all was " sorry" and the whole scene goes on for an hour before i start msging to my gf for help. some words to saviour my mood. i cannot be so unreasonable. let it be a reason for whatever that happens. my agitation reminds me of kelly. and of cos i knew what her reply would be but sometimes u wish for such words of comfort.

you know you tell those who been thru' what you been thru', it makes things much easier to understand. you need not explain. and you knew they knew what you mean. even during times when i couldnt sleep just before the exams when i had another emotional crash with him, such msgs come along with ultra concerns that brings such light into me. is not always the boyfriend that cures a heavy heart. women knows better.

and now i'm at a loss of words of what ever happens the past week..
for there's so much to say and no time to say it all. no words to cover it all.